Wow, it’s been a week since my last post! Guess I’m really on vacation!
I hope you all had a delightful and merry Christmas! I enjoyed the day very much, going to church, cooking, relaxing, and driving around to look at Christmas lights. Oh, and having pie, of course 🙂
Here are a few scenes of my break thus far:
I was having too much fun to actually remember to photograph Christmas morning or Christmas dinner. Or even the pie after baking. I think this is a good thing 🙂
This week has been lovely so far. Much relaxing, shopping, cooking and fellowship-ing. Deeee-lightful! To be completely real, though, this time of year is undoubtedly one of the hardest for dealing with my bad friend (eating disorder). Every where I turn there’s food! And it’s sugary, creamy…delicious. All these foods we only eat at special events – pumpkin or peppermint confections, summer sausage with cheese, Christmas cookies. Every get-together is centered around food. Costco even has extra samples out! It’s like this crazy dual temptation. I want to taste everything, eating to the point of satisfaction, while delighting in the decadent treats (temptation #1). But then I become nervous – scared, even. There are so many choices. So many things I want to taste. So many calories. Then, I just want to walk out. Or throw my plate away and grab a stick of gum. This is temptation #2.
Guys, I haven’t mastered this yet. I’d love to say that I find this great happy-medium where I enjoy a normal amount of food, neither feeling deprived or overly full, and then I happily skip home, feeling comfortable and relaxed. That, however, wouldn’t be entirely true. I can usually eat a normal amount of food…or at least eat until I feel satisfied. But then that nasty voice starts bugging me, telling me that I ate too much or that I better walk extra in the morning.
So what do I do? I do the best that I can. I eat several times during the day. Perhaps not always up to “standard” but again, I do my best. And then I take care of myself. I make time to just be alone in the quiet. I go for walks. I reflect on all the reasons I have to take care of myself. And I read scripture, going back to the promises I’ve read over and over, taking comfort in their familiar and comforting words. These things aren’t magic pills, but they certainly help. 🙂
I don’t mean to sound like a downer. God is still good and faithful. He won’t leave me or forsake me. And change and growth never come without a little discomfort 🙂
I hope you’re all enjoying the Holidays! Check back soon for a recipe for the best scalloped potatoes, possibly ever. Seriously.